A Bad Poet

I just wanna have a conversation through poetry
I want you to get to know the real me
Lately there’s so many things on my mind
It’s blocking the only talent I can call mine
Reading all my old work like I really wrote that
My work now versus then, take me back
But maybe it’s the time I’m currently livin’ in
Everything’s pitch black and I’m suicidal again
I just want all these worries and struggles to disappear
I just want a message from God that’s loud and clear
I used to have so many dreams and aspirations
Now past due bills and loneliness are the topic of conversation
I just wish I could go missing and come back brand new
I just wish I could turn into someone that impressed you