Rock Bottom

So much advice on how I should just try
But little do they know I’m just waiting to die
I’ve lost the will to survive, I’m not lucky to be alive
I’m just waiting for that last day to arrive
So many sins I’m probably going to Hell
So many wrongs, if God still loves me, I can’t tell
Messing around with taken and married women
Getting left and cut off by people I called friend
How do I come back from all of this
How do I find life worth living and a good girl to kiss
I need Jesus, I need the Lord ASAP
I need more than this bottle sitting on my lap