Today I felt hopeful for the first time
For the first time death wasn’t on my mind
Then the pain alcohol reminded me
That me, life and happiness just aren’t meant to be
To be honest I really don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna leave without saying goodbye
I wanna be healthy, I don’t want this addiction
I want a girl like Mel to make loving me her life mission
I’m tired of the bottle and all this conviction
I’m tired of my mistakes making me and honorable mention